To feel you move inside me...

To feel you move inside me just takes my breath away...

The thought of holding you on my side makes
the anticipation grow more and more each day.

I dream of how wonderful this life for you will be...
And although it has it's ups and
downs you can always count on me.

I will sacrifice more than you know just to see you smile...
As long as you know that what I do is
because I've loved you all the while.

Can't wait to see you now...

As I sit here in the room that very soon will belong to you...
I fold your tiny little clothes, knowing all our dreams will soon come true...

I get everything ready, do all that I can... Wishing you were here...
It won't be long now, that I know, the time is drawing near..

Just two weeks to go to meet you kid.. the time will be all right...
but I am so anxious it's so hard to wait I cannot sleep at night..

What will be it like when I see you first, our whole world would fall into place
For all of the peace and love in the world would rest in your tiny face..

-LOT'S AND LOTS OF LOVE,
MUMMA...

A new leaf...

Hard to believe how time flies by..I recall clearly the day my tests came back positve. Deepak and I were planning to go to the office. Time seemed to stop, as slowly the enormity of the news stepped in. I immidiately told Deepak, who like me, was left speechless for a while. Then followed the words and emotions as we both shared our happiness. Wow, I'm going to be a mtoher! This really was a 'breaking news'. Mummy was on seventh sky after listening to the news. From that day, life has no longer been the same. It's filled with moments mixed with happiness, nervousness, cautiousness and a growing sense of responsibility.

\It's so wonderful to see everyone play a part in msking the experience so special. Honestly, I never felt as pampererd and looked after, as I do now. The understanding with which everyone, especially Deepak, puts up with me is a wonder to me..

Week 38..You are growing each day to meet us..

Today, I complete 37 weeks and 38th is started. It means my baby is a full term baby by now and there is no risk if he comes out any day starting from today till 15th November. 24th Oct. this day is special...as all the fear of premature delivery is over today. It is Deepa's birthday too.. and one more good reason to be happy is my HB has come to 10.8 now. It dropped low to 8.9 and doc suspected a blood difusion at delivery time with low hb level. But I am doing good now. Thanks to both mummy and Deepa for taking so much care of my health now. I am loaded with green leafy vegetables and all iron stuff now a days.. :)
Since last two days, baby has become too restless and pushing me very hard now. He is pushing his head alot and I am feeling lot of pain and pressure in my lower area..my legs and back has got worst cramps and pain..and I am feeling just energyless..Being nervous and excited..soon a new leaf will be with us...

Masi's darling coming soon.. :)

Dearest darling,

One more addition to the postings (and waiting of course) for you... This is your masi.. :) I love you the most baboo and waiting to see you soon. I am here with your mumma for last one month and get to talk to u every day. Whenever I keep my hands on mumma's tummy and call you, you seem to reply back immediately..and I just love that. It seems you recognize your masi's voice and like to talk to her :) ...You give kicks and dance around mummy's tummy.. :)

I also went along for your mummy's ultrasound to see you.. Can't explain that moment of happiness..All of us are waiting for the day when you will be with us.. it would be the best day ever..

All of my love and wishes for you..
Masi...

Week 37... and the most awaited ultrasound done .. :)

Dearest kid,

I don't know how to express our happiness to you..today was a big day in our lives..We got to see you in the final ultrasound before you are born. Today you complete 36 weeks in mummy's tummy and are in 37th week now. We went for the ultrasound and could not wait till doc. uncle came to show you to us.. :)
Your head is positioning too low now and you are almost in your birth head down position .. your eys were so wide and open inside me and I can never forget that face..a button nose..wide open eyes,small ears and the most beautiful face ever.. dadi,papa and masi went with me for ultrasound..nani too was in Delhi but we left her home only ;) as we thought doc uncle wont allow so many people..
Ultrasound went good and all things were normal.. I made you 3 kgs.. :) yeah it is your weight and we still have 4 weeks to achieve more :) We were too relaxed after this and papa bought sweets and distributed to all the clinical staff :) .. Tomorrow we will show the report to the doctor..
Lot's a love and blessings to my darling,
mumma

Happy First Diwali to the light of our lives..

Darling,

Yeah, this is your first Diwali..wish you a very happy Diwali from all your family,,we all love you so so much baboo. All of us are so happy just because you are there in our lives now. This Diwali is so so special..dadi, papa, mumma, masi, nani, bua... all of us are happy for you and waiting for you :)

You know what, Diwali is mumma's favorite festival. Mumma just loves it. Last to last year and last year also mumma made rangoli, decoreated the house and enjoyed lot..this time mummy won't be able to make rangoli as you are in tummy..but you know what, Deepa masi will make it this time, she also likes this fest a lot. And yes, you know nani is also coming tomorrow morning to meet you on Diwali :) She loves you alot too. Your dadi's favorite topic of talks is -you only. She loves you the most.. :) (One secret..even more than she loves your papa ;) and don't tell this to papa plzz...) Today dadi and masi went for Diwali shopping and bought me a very nice Diwali gift - a cute necklace.. its too decent and mumma liked it a lot.. Tomorrow mumma will give dadi her diwali gift from your side :)

Lots of love to you baby..right now you are dancing alot in your current home-that is mumma's tummy.. and I am going to talk and play with you now so stopping here... :)

-mumma

Baby's development...

The amazing days..

I love you Cheeku!!!

Cheeku I love you allot baby and I completely agree with mommy that you are most precious for both of us. Your mummy is right in saying that you are most active in nights (for this i think you are on papa). Yesterday (but not just yesterday, all nights rather) I felt your movements, they where amazing. It was like your were in my lap and continously moving. You are the only one in this whole world whose kicks are so adorable to mummy. Cheeku, if you dont believe us its 12:46 AM and just now you have kicked mummy's tummy. One little secret (for all grammar corrections in this post and this sentence also, credits goes to mummy)

Love,
daddy..

Week 36..

Only 3 more days and I wolud be in the 37th week..Through moments of fear and uncertainty, I find comfort in baby movements..I believe each little kich of his/hers is her/his way of communicating with me. Most mornings we begin our day by listening to 'Garbha Sanskar', a wonderful collection of shlokas, mantras, soothing instrumental music and other devotional songs. Cheeku seems to like the music and literally dances on it..
Well now I am only days away from the big day. I find myself more tense and nervous..Physically I've started feeling really tired. Can't remember how many nights I've spent by now just sleepless..whole night Cheeku seems like so fresh and plays a lot with me..I get to sleep by 6 in morning..I talk a lot with him and he/she always reacts so much..gets so happy and I find him so innocent and most darling kid in my world..My support system has grown stronger with Deepa,my sister, coming to stay with me till delivery. Mummy also is very supportive and keeps me pampered. My relationship with Deepak is becoming stronger than ever these days. Its in the little things he seems to be doing for me that touch me deeply- be it placing an extra cushion to make me comfortable, the light massage or trying to help me out in all my works
On professional front, my office colleagues have become very co-operative. My Project lead,Inwish, is really very understanding and helpful to allow me to work from home from last one month. So things have been smooth as daily 5 hours commuting with baby in tummy was a great pain. Sometimes I wonder how I'll be able to cope with my work once my baby is born. The uncertainty is compounded by the want to provide my baby with my constant love and attention. Deepak and I have talked about it- the options, I hope, will help us cross the bridge when we come to it.

Week 35..

It's a beautiful world. And each new day brings with it new thoughts and moments to treasure. I find myself, quite unknowingly at times, day dreaming... I easily get lost in an imaginary world where my baby and I spend precious time together. I love these moments as they seem to work as a therapy to ease the tensions and worries that sometimes creep into my thoughts...

You make our family the happiest of all...