Poor l'il cheeku gets DPT vaccine :(

And he has got fever plus lot of pain...can't see him like this..thats a big injection for him..he continued crying for days..yeah 2 days..
Deepak is down with 103.5 degrees of fever..he is ill for almost one week now and is scheuled for a blood test tomorrow..so tensed I am..:( not a great year end :(

He gave me the first real smile today... :))

I am on the seventh sky...out of the world today..I was changing Cheeku's nappy today and continously talking to him, singing to him, and suddenly he started smiling.. and not for a fraction sec like before..it was long and it seemd he was liking the job..:) then from that time, he is giving occasionsal smiles to me as if he is really enjoying mum's company and job..It is the most precious day..I AM LOVING IT!!

6 weeks old cheeku.. :)

Weeks just fly away when you are the mother of a new baby. Cheeku is 6 weeks old now and it still seems a yesterday's affair (of giving birth). Life changes completely once you are a mum. You start having a feeling of completion in yourself.You walk around in a fog and this is the kind of thing you're thinking:

• My baby is the cutest and most beautiful baby EVER! It's not even fair for all the other babies!

• What was I looking for again?

• Look at those cheeks! "Yes you my a cute *chocolate pastry*!"

• What day are we? (or what time is it?)

• Did I brush my teeth this morning?

• Maybe I can snooze for a few minutes before it's tomorrow...

• Did that relative wash their hands before touching the baby?

• When's the last time I took a shower and what the ____ is up with my hair?

• *looking at baby* Could I be feeling any more love right now?

:)) well yes this is so true that this 4 kg kid has made everyone dance like this ;) I am so exhausted (Ok ok Even Deepak and mummy too are.. ;)). I never knew I could be so physically, emotionally, and mentally drained. I read somewhere that Cheeku is operating mostly on instinct right now, but no one told me that I too would be reduced to little more than instinct in the first few days ;). I have only a vague concept of night and day right now - I'm dozing in little chunks between feedings (so if any of this post doesn't make sense, you know why). Cheeku makes us awake the whole night and cries cries and cries...(all cries lead to nursing him only)

I feel like I'll never have the energy to even crawl out of bed and get dressed! How long until I feel like myself again?

9-12-2009- Our one month old baby...

Cheeku is one month today!

Sometimes it looks to me that I gave birth to my joy-bundle yesterday only,,and sometimes it looks I am with him for ages..But where this one month has flew, we both are amazed..

Although days and weeks do fly so fast with him, there is definitely a difference between 1 week and 4. We're recognizing cries more, and if we aren't we have the baby soothing routine down and we do it like as if we've been programmed to. Check the diaper, walk around, snuggle, burp, eat... In whatever order works for us.
Both Deepak and I have falled in love once again..but this time not with each other.. :) but with our baby.. :)) He looks such a miracle to us and is impossible to write or discribe in words..We love him the most..

We so much enjoy the bonding, but that's WAY too long... We have a life!
 
Life with our 1 month old infant is amazingly wonderful and I am trying to savor every moment. What if I'm not lucky enough to go through all this again? Because I feel lucky. Lucky for every cry, every poop, every pee, every burp, every smile...

He's here!

He's here! (And finally I am managing some time to write this post when he is sleeping in my lap...:))
Little Cheeku made his grand entrance on November 9th 2009 at 9.53 PM. Everything's kind of a blur and I'm still coming to terms with the fact that I'm this little person's mother and he's completely dependent on me for everything, but other than that we're healthy and happy, and extremely tired. He's so tiny! Of course, during the last three weeks of my pregnancy and delivery he certainly didn't feel so small!


I really didn't think he was going to come any time soon - thought for sure he was cozy in there and I would go past my due date (the 15th). In my last post on 9th nov, I worte that I already started getting contractions and weather I could eat sambhar chawal was the pole for the day ;)

And the answer is 'NO' - I could not..:) We had our doc appointment in night and we were waiting for Deepak to return from office so that we go to doc soon. I already started feeling pains and high bp.. when we went to the doc at 8:00, and he examined me, and I told him I was having very little (almost no) baby movements since last night, he looked suspecious..my BP was going high, and was risky for baby. To add to our tensions, Cheeku still did not come into the brith head down position and was in breech..So doc decided to immidiately operate me as baby heart beats would have sink..He asked us not even to go home and to get admitted asap..I was so nervous that I started crying of fear..Soon I was in nursing home for a C-section and after having such painful and traumatic delivery experience, I gave birth to Cheeku at 9.53 PM...

If someone asks me what was the most memorable moment of my life, it was definitly when I saw my baby for the first time..nobody has seen him like that..he just came out of my tummy and our connecting cord was even not cut yet, when doc showed him to me..he was so covered with blood and other things, and even remembering the moment make me thrilled..It was looking like a miracle to me that he was here...I was feeling so proud to make the most beautiful baby on earth :)

Cheeku's body stats at the time of birth:
Weight: 2.8 kg.
Hight: 19 inches
Date: 9-November-2009 (A Scorpio child)
Time: 9:53 PM
I remember his first cry.. he was such a little baby and cried like a champ, which just made me cry harder..

9:53 PM:- My baby is One week

Mummy loves you Cheeku.. you are in my arms right now so i cannot write..

7 beautiful days...

7 beautiful days... we are on seventh sky.. loving each moment being with Cheeku.. he is love of our life.... 

We are blessed with you...

The most amazing and awaited day of our life has arrived.. 9th Novemeber 2009 10.30 PM first time i was holding you in my arms, heared ur voice.. yes this is the time we got blessed with our baby boy.. our darling baby.. We just wanna tell, how precious and important you are for us.. We love you baby.. All our prayers has been answered today and god has given us YOU!..
Love you my darling baby....

Started feeling my first of contractions...

It seems our baby is on his way to meet us very soon... as I've already started experiencing changes in my body since last night's post. I am getting irregular contractions now. My BP also seems to be high..and I am trying to keep it down as much possible. It is coming high continously in my last 4,5 routine checkups..so I am bit worried..
Well my nesting insticts have become more and more stronger now.. :) I am cleaning and cleaning and cleaning the home wherever and whenever possible for making it anew for my little one..Today I cleaned all my closets, almirah, bed, room..we called the pest control in the morning. Even Deepa is working like mads since morning for the cleaning stuff..She removed all kitchet stuff after pest control and cleaned every corner, rearranged every little thing...We called the drycleaner to handover the blankets, curtains and other clothers to him... :) called the electrician, carpentar..and what not..everything should be ready for you darling... :))
Deepak is coming from office and then we have our appointment with doctor. God, I am being nervous.. sab thik ho..I already made sambhar for dinner..but, kya main wo sambhar kha paungi? ;) , is the question of the day...:) As I am anticipating so many things..may be doctor admit me..may be my baby come today only.. wow..I am having so so many mixed feelings of nervousness and excitement..would need to stop as I am feeling more pains now...
ALl my Love to our little one...

Week 40...Counting and counting..

I packed my hospital bag this week (finally...I think I should have done that a couple of weeks ago!). Now I'm really ready to go at a moment's notice! It feels weird to just kind of sit and wait for this really momentous thing to happen to me. I was laughing at Deepak last weeks when he was so nervous every time I left the house, but now even I'm starting to get a bit anxious. It hasn't stopped me from going anywhere, but the image of my water breaking in the middle of the supermarket does flash through my mind every time I walk out the door. I know I'm just jittery and overly nervous - first-time-mother stuff...

Our family and friends are so excited to meet the baby too; they have been checking in with us on an almost-daily basis, especially Deepak's mumma. She is more excited than anyone and keeps on asking me on hourly basis if I got my waters broken.. :)) I swear she does not trust I would know myself when I am in the "real" thing..-the labor and so she keeps on reminding (and checking up with) me..:))

I too 'm really impatient to meet my baby and not feel like a whale (or a big house) anymore, but I'm still a little scared of labor, so I'm definitely not resorting to any labor-inducing methods just yet. But give me another week or two and I may be hitting you ladies up for every idea..:)
Our baby looks lazy even to come down to the correct birth position yet and is not in the head down position still. He/She is almost in the breech position and so giving me threats of going through a C-Section. I never want to have that option and swear by having a natural delivery..God knows what would happen..my doc said he would induce me once I am passed 15th Nov...

To feel you move inside me...

To feel you move inside me just takes my breath away...

The thought of holding you on my side makes
the anticipation grow more and more each day.

I dream of how wonderful this life for you will be...
And although it has it's ups and
downs you can always count on me.

I will sacrifice more than you know just to see you smile...
As long as you know that what I do is
because I've loved you all the while.

Can't wait to see you now...

As I sit here in the room that very soon will belong to you...
I fold your tiny little clothes, knowing all our dreams will soon come true...

I get everything ready, do all that I can... Wishing you were here...
It won't be long now, that I know, the time is drawing near..

Just two weeks to go to meet you kid.. the time will be all right...
but I am so anxious it's so hard to wait I cannot sleep at night..

What will be it like when I see you first, our whole world would fall into place
For all of the peace and love in the world would rest in your tiny face..

-LOT'S AND LOTS OF LOVE,
MUMMA...

A new leaf...

Hard to believe how time flies by..I recall clearly the day my tests came back positve. Deepak and I were planning to go to the office. Time seemed to stop, as slowly the enormity of the news stepped in. I immidiately told Deepak, who like me, was left speechless for a while. Then followed the words and emotions as we both shared our happiness. Wow, I'm going to be a mtoher! This really was a 'breaking news'. Mummy was on seventh sky after listening to the news. From that day, life has no longer been the same. It's filled with moments mixed with happiness, nervousness, cautiousness and a growing sense of responsibility.

\It's so wonderful to see everyone play a part in msking the experience so special. Honestly, I never felt as pampererd and looked after, as I do now. The understanding with which everyone, especially Deepak, puts up with me is a wonder to me..

Week 38..You are growing each day to meet us..

Today, I complete 37 weeks and 38th is started. It means my baby is a full term baby by now and there is no risk if he comes out any day starting from today till 15th November. 24th Oct. this day is special...as all the fear of premature delivery is over today. It is Deepa's birthday too.. and one more good reason to be happy is my HB has come to 10.8 now. It dropped low to 8.9 and doc suspected a blood difusion at delivery time with low hb level. But I am doing good now. Thanks to both mummy and Deepa for taking so much care of my health now. I am loaded with green leafy vegetables and all iron stuff now a days.. :)
Since last two days, baby has become too restless and pushing me very hard now. He is pushing his head alot and I am feeling lot of pain and pressure in my lower area..my legs and back has got worst cramps and pain..and I am feeling just energyless..Being nervous and excited..soon a new leaf will be with us...

Masi's darling coming soon.. :)

Dearest darling,

One more addition to the postings (and waiting of course) for you... This is your masi.. :) I love you the most baboo and waiting to see you soon. I am here with your mumma for last one month and get to talk to u every day. Whenever I keep my hands on mumma's tummy and call you, you seem to reply back immediately..and I just love that. It seems you recognize your masi's voice and like to talk to her :) ...You give kicks and dance around mummy's tummy.. :)

I also went along for your mummy's ultrasound to see you.. Can't explain that moment of happiness..All of us are waiting for the day when you will be with us.. it would be the best day ever..

All of my love and wishes for you..
Masi...

Week 37... and the most awaited ultrasound done .. :)

Dearest kid,

I don't know how to express our happiness to you..today was a big day in our lives..We got to see you in the final ultrasound before you are born. Today you complete 36 weeks in mummy's tummy and are in 37th week now. We went for the ultrasound and could not wait till doc. uncle came to show you to us.. :)
Your head is positioning too low now and you are almost in your birth head down position .. your eys were so wide and open inside me and I can never forget that face..a button nose..wide open eyes,small ears and the most beautiful face ever.. dadi,papa and masi went with me for ultrasound..nani too was in Delhi but we left her home only ;) as we thought doc uncle wont allow so many people..
Ultrasound went good and all things were normal.. I made you 3 kgs.. :) yeah it is your weight and we still have 4 weeks to achieve more :) We were too relaxed after this and papa bought sweets and distributed to all the clinical staff :) .. Tomorrow we will show the report to the doctor..
Lot's a love and blessings to my darling,
mumma

Happy First Diwali to the light of our lives..

Darling,

Yeah, this is your first Diwali..wish you a very happy Diwali from all your family,,we all love you so so much baboo. All of us are so happy just because you are there in our lives now. This Diwali is so so special..dadi, papa, mumma, masi, nani, bua... all of us are happy for you and waiting for you :)

You know what, Diwali is mumma's favorite festival. Mumma just loves it. Last to last year and last year also mumma made rangoli, decoreated the house and enjoyed lot..this time mummy won't be able to make rangoli as you are in tummy..but you know what, Deepa masi will make it this time, she also likes this fest a lot. And yes, you know nani is also coming tomorrow morning to meet you on Diwali :) She loves you alot too. Your dadi's favorite topic of talks is -you only. She loves you the most.. :) (One secret..even more than she loves your papa ;) and don't tell this to papa plzz...) Today dadi and masi went for Diwali shopping and bought me a very nice Diwali gift - a cute necklace.. its too decent and mumma liked it a lot.. Tomorrow mumma will give dadi her diwali gift from your side :)

Lots of love to you baby..right now you are dancing alot in your current home-that is mumma's tummy.. and I am going to talk and play with you now so stopping here... :)

-mumma

Baby's development...

The amazing days..

I love you Cheeku!!!

Cheeku I love you allot baby and I completely agree with mommy that you are most precious for both of us. Your mummy is right in saying that you are most active in nights (for this i think you are on papa). Yesterday (but not just yesterday, all nights rather) I felt your movements, they where amazing. It was like your were in my lap and continously moving. You are the only one in this whole world whose kicks are so adorable to mummy. Cheeku, if you dont believe us its 12:46 AM and just now you have kicked mummy's tummy. One little secret (for all grammar corrections in this post and this sentence also, credits goes to mummy)

Love,
daddy..

Week 36..

Only 3 more days and I wolud be in the 37th week..Through moments of fear and uncertainty, I find comfort in baby movements..I believe each little kich of his/hers is her/his way of communicating with me. Most mornings we begin our day by listening to 'Garbha Sanskar', a wonderful collection of shlokas, mantras, soothing instrumental music and other devotional songs. Cheeku seems to like the music and literally dances on it..
Well now I am only days away from the big day. I find myself more tense and nervous..Physically I've started feeling really tired. Can't remember how many nights I've spent by now just sleepless..whole night Cheeku seems like so fresh and plays a lot with me..I get to sleep by 6 in morning..I talk a lot with him and he/she always reacts so much..gets so happy and I find him so innocent and most darling kid in my world..My support system has grown stronger with Deepa,my sister, coming to stay with me till delivery. Mummy also is very supportive and keeps me pampered. My relationship with Deepak is becoming stronger than ever these days. Its in the little things he seems to be doing for me that touch me deeply- be it placing an extra cushion to make me comfortable, the light massage or trying to help me out in all my works
On professional front, my office colleagues have become very co-operative. My Project lead,Inwish, is really very understanding and helpful to allow me to work from home from last one month. So things have been smooth as daily 5 hours commuting with baby in tummy was a great pain. Sometimes I wonder how I'll be able to cope with my work once my baby is born. The uncertainty is compounded by the want to provide my baby with my constant love and attention. Deepak and I have talked about it- the options, I hope, will help us cross the bridge when we come to it.

Week 35..

It's a beautiful world. And each new day brings with it new thoughts and moments to treasure. I find myself, quite unknowingly at times, day dreaming... I easily get lost in an imaginary world where my baby and I spend precious time together. I love these moments as they seem to work as a therapy to ease the tensions and worries that sometimes creep into my thoughts...

You make our family the happiest of all...

your papa's tortures on me...

This is your achhi mommy and gande papa..... :))

Cheeku you are right, papa is torturing me like anything since morning. Subha se jitni bar bhi dekh rahe hain mere ko dant rahe hain..ya to dadi se dant pada rahe hain...mere ko chai pini hai or bol rahe hain ab ki chai naih pini subha se 2 bar pi chuki ho..milk pio :( or subha dadi se keh ke dant padwai ki bahut tez chalti hai...bhagti hai...or fir ye ki bed ke galat side se utri taki gir jae :( or fir ye ki ghar pe dawa nahi khati na hi fruits..or fir pani gir gaya galti se to uspe bhi danta..DVD ke remote ki jagha tata sky wala use kar rahi thi galti se to bhi bola ki tum bilkul gaon ki ho :((( dekh lo samjha lo paapa ko..aj ghar par hain or meri nak me dam kar diya hai dant dant ke :( mujhe bahut zor ki chai pini hai or pine nahi de rahe :((( to maine socha chalo tumse shikayat kar deti hun..tum dant dena papa ko..

09-09-09: Chiku is too eager to come out...

It seems our little angel has too much hurry to come out of mumma's boring tummy and see the beautiful outside world .. :) 09-09-09 that is yesterday, that he/she was becoming so restless and giving mumma big threats and fear of him/her coming so early..:( I got sharp contrations when I was in office iteself as Cheeku is just 31st weeks old inside me and I was getting pains..I immediately called my doctor and he prescribed me medicines to stop contractions. I took it but with less effect..I called Deepak and he came too immediately..we left for home. Doctor presribed me 10 days bedrest and take medicines for next 10 days..baboo plz be inside mummy's belly for next 8 weeks only..and then all fun will be yours.. your dadi and papa were also so so tensed..they both tried to calm mumma whole night..they did not sleep whole night too.. :( as doctor uncle said if pain remain like this then he will have to operate mummy to take you out the same day only :(
I know you are a naughty baby..and loves to make mumma fool like this only and have no such plans to come out early...hain na baboo..I know you are on your mammy who loves to prank a lot.. :) and that is why I love you so so much..you know we bought one very pretty baby poster and sticked it in our room too..It makes me miss you so much..everytime I look at it, I think of you..:) You are our world..we love you so much our happiness..you mean so much..
all our love to you..

mumma.. 

69 days to go...:)

Pappa--this is for you ... :))


My Mum to be's excited,
My Daddy seems so sure.
Daddy u'll be thankful if,
I'm only one ... not more.

I know the twinkle in your eye
Has turned into a glaze,
But Daddy, I will love you
In a thousand baby ways.

And when it's time for beddy byes
I promise not to cry.
Well ... everyone is entitled
To tell a little Lie.

And if you wonder what I'll be,
While you just sit and wait.
Well, boy or girl won't matter,
I'll be Daddy's little mate.

Daddy loves you

I love you my baby.....
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30 weeks in mumma's tummy...

Today our little one is 30 weeks in my belly.. :) and he/she is a big boy/girl now..we both are excited and looking forward his/her arrival..

I get lot of baby movements by now. Cheeku is most active during nights..it seems sometimes he waits for mumma to lie down to sleep so that he can start playing and practicing the gymnastic or some form of dances :) but it is a miracle feeling to feel you inside my tummy and feel each of your movement..we both enjoy your all movements so much..it was fun when doctor uncle were checking your heartbeats yesterday and pressing mummy's tummy to check you..and you gave 3 big kicks to him to assure that you are alright and a big boy/girl now... :)

Cheeku is becoming too naughty too..he took away mumma papa and dadi's breaths 2,3 days before..when suddenly he stopped moving at all for whole day and night..we were so so tensed for what is happening with him..why can't he just wake up and play..we tried every possible thing to wake him up..but with no effect..and then the very next day our little wonder woke up after one full day and night nap and kicked mumma on the way to office after listening to durga ma bhajan...we got our breaths back..cant tell how relaxed we were to listen to him again... and after that again in the day time while I was attending a session in office, he woke up in his full form after listening to Inwish's (my team lead) bold voice :)) so I am thankful to him also...come what may..we understand the importance of being parents after you came to our lives..we both love you lot..you are our little wonder...

all our love

mumma,papa

Just two months and you will be in our arms...

I'm officially in my third trimester! I can't believe how the time has flown! Thirteen more weeks (give or take) and my Cheeku will be in my arms. It's so exciting to think that my baby can hear and react to things going on around me and his or her eyes are now open. It somehow makes him or her seem so much more real to me.I think I'm really going to miss being pregnant, though, and I'm already sad that this will be over in a few short months - it's such a unique and amazing experience. Not to get all goopy and sentimental, (oh what the hell, I'll just blame it on the hormones!) but I really love having a baby inside me, especially right now when I'm still relatively comfortable, Cheeku is moving a lot, and he or she is still safe and secure in my belly. I'm still nervous about being a mom - there just seems to be so much that I don't know. Even though my life has definitely changed since I got pregnant, they are all minor changes such as what food I can eat, what clothes I can wear, and in what position I can sleep. But a little human who is more-or-less constantly latched onto me is a whole other story full of midnight feedings, mountains of diapers, and a million things that can go wrong. I'm just starting to get used to this pregnancy thing and I don't know if I'm ready for the next phase!-
From Mumma

12th-April_our first ultrasound..

We (mumma papa)are very happy today..we got to see you for the first time on a computer screen..:) it is my third month and doctor recommended an ultrasound to see your heartbeat pattern..We were too excited to see you..and so happy too..it was like a dream to see you inside my tummy..

Ultrasound techie showed us your heartbeats..you had fast heartbeats.. I am feeling great to have two hearts within me right now..:) You are really an amazing feeling..thanks for coming to our lives and giving such bundle of joy.. you are our darling...the most important one in our lives now..

lots a love...

mumma, papa

The most amazing news in our life...

And this is a darling is coming to us..I don't know who (s)he is..but is going to be an angle..:)
We are so happy..Deepak and I are on top of this world. This news is the best news I've heard till now..Mummy can't hold her happiness.. :) both families are happy..You are going to be the first kid of this home.. (as mummy say..you will be the only one..being her Son's child)..you will be the first kid of your nani house too.. :)
13th March, we got to know you are coming..and life has changed that morning only. It was a Thursday..and we had to get ready for office :)
Just wanted to share these some good feelngs of my life..I am carrying you within myself..my stomach..:) and this is the most amazing feeling one can have..Just get thrilled by you at times..I am 6 weeks pregnant now and you will be too small in me this time..soon we would be able to see
you in an ultrasound on 3rd month..:))
Lots a love,
God bless you always..
mumma :)